i've recently started to notice how much my life has changed.

sometimes i start to wonder whats really out there after life,
the only thing that keeps me hanging on to that the fact that heaven is real
is knowing you are the only person who deserves to be there.
i hope that one day, we will see each other again
& i hope that you haven't lost your sense of wonder.
sometimes i wonder if your around us, there are so many things
that make me feel like your still here with me.
fifty three was way to young, but you fought hard and strong for eight years
we never expected you do to anything more then your best,
we know you strive for greatness.
like alex said, it was just your time to go.
they say time heals everything, but im still waiting..
as i sit here, at my desk thinking about how much my life has changed, you come to mind
you were the greatest mother, a girl could ever ask for, and i miss you, so so much.
i think that this is the first time i've thought about you without crying, yet again
as a tear rolls down my face. I cannot describe how much my life has changed since you left, i feel out of control, i feel lost and unsure. when i look through my facebook notes, i see myself writing about how strong you are, and how your going to get through it, this makes me so scared for my future, but i know that your watching over me, i know it because i can feel your hand on my shoulder, guiding me through life. some pretty amazing things have been happening lately mom, i really wish you were here to see it, i wish i could tell you all about my boy problems, or about school, or even stress with you over university applications, but i can't and i know i can't.
your the strongest women I know.
i love you.