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My name is Alexandria Leesa Lebedev Johnston , the Sasha pops up because I am Russian, and in Russian the name Alexandria translates into Sasha. My family calls me this, as do my friends which model, and as do the others in the industry. If you knew me as Leesa, I think its stupid to start calling me something different now, so continue on with Leesa. Anyways, my birthday is January 3rd 1992. I am a rambunctious, opinionated and stubborn sixteen year old. I am also very cynical for my age, or so I have been told. My favourite colour is yellow, because a better colour cannot exist (except perhaps green). I like eating, a lot, in fact I eat so much that most of my hard earned money goes towards feeding whatever it is that lives inside my stomach and urges me to eat so much. I read a lot, as well. I enjoy controversial topics and issues, and I often find myself arguing just about anything. I don't think I can consider myself an athiest, because something like god cannot be proven, nor can it be proven against. Then again neither can fairies. I love learning about religions and the traditions and beliefs of people around the world. I also love philosophy, including metaphysics. Stephen Hawking is a genius in my opinion, and by the opinions of the world. I believe in Darwinism, and natural selection/evolution. I like summer time, and autumn. Summer time because it puts me out of my Canadian spring misery, and lets me run around in very little clothing, which is very efficient. Autumn, because I adore the rain and all the sights/smells/sounds/feelings (and tastes if you're one of those) associated with it. I have travelled around Asia now; to Hong Kong, Bangkok, and Tokyo. I love them all for their many differences and contrasts with one another. I have also been to the states, Ukraine, Israel, Egypt, and Cuba along with Europe. I love modeling because it provides me with the ability to travel anywhere that my little heart desires, and to broaden my perspectives of the world, over all. I am not a very emotional person whatsoever. I find it hard to maintain myself in conversations involving a great deal of sadness. As some of you know, I love art. Its not because I get my emotions on paper/canvas/whatever. Its because there, in that split minute, hour, or day, I get the freedom to do anything. I get the freedom to draw, to create, to make whatever I want. I love art because I can make my own world with the stroke of a paintbrush. It is the same reason I love writing so much. I love getting my opinions and inspirations and angry vents out on paper or computer. It is soothing, and calming. Unlike people who don't want anyone to see their art or writing, I crave mine to be judged by people. I love commentary and opinions, so it is an orgasmic sense to know people are looking at what I created, and making their own judgments based on what they have seen and think. I have never been in love, but its fine because I'm only sixteen, and I'm not really seeking for anything like that anytime soon. Though, with this being said, I love my friends. I simply adore them. The ones that have stuck by me through everything, they are basically my sisters. Stephanie and Alex, I owe my life to you guys pretty much. Thanks for sticking by me while I have come and gone, it really, truly means a lot. The person who I respect the most is my mother. I am overwhelmed by the things she has witnessed in her 52 years of life. She is simply the strongest, wisest woman I know...and the coolest mom ever. I used to be a strong believer in karma, now I'm not quite so sure. Some people are luckier than others, from my experience. I am a very nervous person, you may never get to see that side of me, but I am. I get nervous and stressed out from everything, but I get over it...although it does trigger my greatly appreciated (HUGE sarcasm there) migraines. I love life and everything to do with it, and I am always changing. I have realized that nobody can tell you how to act, how successful you will be in any aspect of your life, or the kind of person you are and will become. They are just words. You decide if they stick or if they don't. I have realized what I want, how I want it, and when I want it, and I don't care what anyone has to say about it anymore. You determine your own goals, aspirations, achievements, and just about anything. With that being said, I know that one day I will do something amazing. If not in someone else's eyes, in my own. I will be what I want, and how I want it. I will always be myself, my ever changing, ever growing, ever experiencing self.