I think I have sat here for the past hour, writing and erasing, writing and erasing. When I think about you, the words come out differently, they don't have as much meaning as my thoughts do. The words "I love you" typed by my computer keys doesn't seem to be enough, it's never enough. I really don't know what it is about you, maybe its the way that nothing else matters when I'm talking to you or maybe how you make me smile more then anyone else. it could be the way that you do the exact right thing, at the exact right time. Whatever it may be, I just want you to now that, it means everything to me. From day one, its been a roller coaster, but I wouldn't change one minute for the world because everything we've been through already has made us stronger each time around. I'm sorry for all the little fights and the big ones too, I'm sorry for everything I've put you through, I'm sorry for making you, make my choices for me. I'm sorry for every minute I could be with you, when I'm not. I'm sorry for choosing my friends over you and I'm sorry about the mistakes I've made that hurt you. I honestly, never want to hurt you, ever but I know I have and I wish I could take it back. You are so important to me, every single second of my life is so special now, because I know you love me. You stuck with me through everything, and I can't thank you enough. You changed my whole life. Boo, you picked me up and turned me all around. You are the only reason why I am smiling. You are the light in my life, my guidance, you keep me going, everyday. I miss you every second because I can't be with you. I need you by my side, you saved me, someday you will realize that. I don't want to waste another second because my love for you, feels so right. And your right, I don't always tell you how much you mean to me, or how much I care about you, I'm not really good with words, I couldn't look at you in the face and say those things because the only words that I would be able to get out are "I love you." I'm am so scared, that you're going to wake up one day and realize I'm not perfect, I'm not right for you and you take everything back. I never want to hear those words.. ever, I would rather DIE then hear you say you don't feel the same way. Sometimes I have nightmares about loosing you, I wake up and cry because I cannot bare the emotionally break of that. Without you I am not whole, you have not only my heart, but every single piece of me. For the three long weeks, I spent without you in my life.. I don't think there was one single minute I wasn't in pain. I was hurting. I needed you so badly, I never really realized how much I depend on you, until it finally hit me in those long weeks. I remember, trying to hate you, I remember trying to forget you, I remember looking everywhere, and seeing you. Seeing bits of your personality, bits of my memories of you, somewhere. I couldn't escape you, as much as I tried, I remember sitting in my bed at four am, bawling over nothing, I just missed you so much. You might not be mine, but I will always be yours. I gave you my everything, when you left, it followed you. In conclusion;

Thank you for fixing me.

Thank you for falling in love with me, because

your love is beautiful.

"I can't help how I feel about you, you are just my perfect girl, there is nothing I can do about it, but fall in love with you, and thats exactly what happened"
September 12.

i might not be good at telling you how i feel, but this song surely says it