I really don't believe in second chances, however are new beginnings and fresh starts second chances? I mean really, if you think about it, getting a fresh start, starting over? thats basically a second chance, at life. I always thought I would be the kind of girl to get through anything, I always thought I would be able to tough it out, move forward when I don't think I can. Maybe I used to be that girl, I mean I used to be able to handle anything that was thrown at me.. now however, my life seems to be on a roller coaster of emotions, set-backs and let downs. You work so hard to get where you are today, either in school, in your career or in your relationship, but you never really know? Everything can come crashing down on you in a matter of seconds without the blink of an eye, it can be gone. Everything is crashing down on me lately, I now know what it feels to be tired of fighting and just want to give up, I will not fall, I will not give up without a fight, I will not continue on this path I'm on.

So, in retrospect;

Here is to all the girls, who used to be his number one. Here is to all of you who looked at your phone every single second to see if it was ringing, even when it was on vibrate. The one's who went through a sour breakup, only to have him walk back into your life a few months later. Every girl who hoped and prayed for things to turn out right, only to have them turn completely wrong. Here's to all those girls who sat on the couch and watched the same movie for the umpteenth time only because it reminded you of him. To all of you who had to walk down a hallway and act like you didn't even remember him. Here's to all us girls who have fell back in love with the same boy who made you do all of this.